Dear Speed Seduction(R) Students,
Last night, at about 7:45 PM, my father left this life.
I’m sure everyone reading this has different beliefs about what happens at the end of physical life. I’ll not have that discussion here; when you lose someone like this, in the face of this kind of loss, everyone reaches for their own form of comfort that is graspable for them.
I can tell you, from a personal perspective, how I feel this morning, writing this: tired from not sleeping well, emotionally a bit drained, but also relieved.
Let me explain a bit about the relief; for the past 5 or 6 years, my family and I have gone through countless experiences of both of our parents(my Mom passed on April 29, 2007) being hospitalized, nearly every time with what seemed to be life-threatening conditions.
I’ve been in emergency rooms and intensive care bed-sides so many times, I can actually read a heart monitor pretty accurately.
In fact what many of you probably don’t know, is in virtually every circumstance when I’ve had to travel outside of Los Angeles to teach a seminar in the past 5 years, one or both of my parents was in the hospital and I never knew if my return would see the gone or alive.
So, selfish as it might seem, I am actually(and sighing as a I write this) relieved that my Dad is finally gone. Relieved that this long period of constant fear and worry is finally over.
Now, one thing I’ve learned is that human emotion is complex. Often, many emotions are experienced at one time as an undifferentiated clump of “something” that tightens us up and blocks our experience. And the use of having a meditation practice is to be able to sort through, separate out, and experience each one with maximum awareness and minimum grasping.
So I will go through the meditation of mourning my Dad. And find the humor and the peace in it as well as the sorrow and the pain. Because I really do try to do my best to practice what I preach. It makes me a better teacher, and my father would have approved of that.
Peace and piece,
RJ
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